Now Griffin allowed himself to be pulled into Grimm’s arms, his hands tightly gripping to the others shirt as he relaxed against him, trying to calm the storm inside of him. But that kiss, the way it felt, how Griffin knew Grimm meant the love, Griffin felt even more tears fall as he kissed back, his arms moving to wrap around Grimm’s neck, holding tight.
"You make me feel safe and happy." He murmured, shaking his head. "I know I’m loved, I know I’m somewhere safe, I know I’m with someone who cares- but I can’t forget the past, not with how many threats hang over my head baby… I-I’m always scared, that Nikki’s gonna show up, and take me back. That he”ll get through you, he’ll hurt you… And god, I’d rather him just take me away to risk you getting hurt. But at the same time, I can’t do that, because I need you… I need you more than I’ve ever needed Nikkoli. "
Now he knew he needed to explain everything, he knew Grimm would have question, he took a deep breath, kissing the others jaw once again, before he began speaking again.
"In total, we were together for quite a few years, but I only enjoyed the first year. Around our 3rd year, I became pregnant. But, it didn’t last long after Nikkoli found out. He swore up and down on his life that it wasn’t his, that I must’ve fucked someone else- but I’m not a cheater l. I mean yes, I did fuck Nikki while we were together but, I’ll explain that. Anyways, Nikkoli got pissed and he beat the shit out of me, like usual. Yes I miscarried, and that really… It opened my eyes a bit, to Nikkoli. To how he really was."
"Nikkoli became pregnant not long after that incident, and he knew it was mine. He kept the baby, and that was Dominic. There were times Nikkoli would attack Domi and I would… Jump in, and get the worst beatings. Dominic was only about two, when I ave him up. I handed him over to an old friend, where he grew up to be the boy he is now… And I couldn’t be prouder of him." He had a smile now, and a distant look. He truly loved his son, though it always pained him to know that because of his other father, he hadn’t been raised by him. But that smile only lasted briefly, before he began speaking more.
"Once Nikkoli found out what I did, he almost killed me. I sill have scars from that… But, he told me that because of what I did, i was to never have kids with anyone, again. Not him, not another boyfriend, I could never adopt, get anyone pregnant… He said if I dd, he’d kill me, and the kid. Because of what I did to our child. I saved our child, while he killed our first one. It doesn’t make sense but.. That’s where these nightmares are coming from. Is because of that, I’m always afraid that Nikki will find out at any minute and, I’ll be dead, and our kid will be dead."
He wiped his face with his sleeves, sniffling, before speaking more. “But I till didn’t leave him. I stayed for another five years after that. I couldn’t leave, because deep down, I still loved the son of a bitch. I still thought he was him… But I was wrong. The abuse only got worse, eventually I began wearing a shock collar, I was kept on a leash… Nikkoli gave me up to Dimitri, for awhile. When He’d be off doing his royal business, Dimitri and his brother Felix, basically owned me. I was their personal toy, to be used, abused, played with, in any way. And then there was Dante. He broke me in every way possible, he’s the main factor that kept me with Nikkoli. Because they both would say that if I left Nikkoli, I’d be walking into death.”
"When we first met, I was still with Nikki. It was wrong of me to stay around and talk to you… And do what we did but God, when we met… I knew I loved you Grimm. Just the way you looked, how you acted… I just kept thinking to myself, "What if? What if this guys better? What if this guy will treat you better? What if he could protect you?" And, that’s why I let myself… Get attached to you at first. But Nikkoli scented you on me when I got back, that’s why I never came back for a few months. He locked me away, he kept me in a cage, he starved and beat me for it… I was sacred to come back."
"But I eventually escaped, and came back to you. You just gave me this… Odd safety and comfort no one else had and… I loved it. I wanted it. So Nikkoli knew I ran, but he let me alone for awhile. But I knew of his threats and things… And that’s why I was always scared. The reasons I cheated so easily on you with Nikkoli was 1. fear. and 2, he was my first love, my first want. It’s just that connection that’s always been there. And even in my head, that I know he’s using me, it’s always going to be that, "But what if he changes again? What if-" but I know he won’t, because every time I’d mention you, I’d get hit, he’d tell me you wouldn’t love me because I cheated, he’d leave me broken, he’d make it seem like I made the moves, and he’d leave. He’d watch you and me fight, he’d watch you scream and leave, he’d watch me break… And he’d only laugh."
Grimm listened quietly, nodding slowly, he bit his lip, sighing. “Baby…. I won’t let him hurt me. I will give every last drop of life I can to keep you and our child safe.” He said in an affectionate, loving voice.
"You are my world, I would fight to the death for you, I will do anything and everything to keep you happy and safe from that monster- I love you, so much."